Sunday, February 21, 2021

Good-bye to My Past Love

 

“𝐼𝑓 π‘¦π‘œπ‘’’π‘Ÿπ‘’ π‘π‘Ÿπ‘Žπ‘£π‘’ π‘’π‘›π‘œπ‘’π‘”β„Ž π‘‘π‘œ π‘ π‘Žπ‘¦ π‘”π‘œπ‘œπ‘‘π‘π‘¦π‘’, 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝑀𝑖𝑙𝑙 π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘€π‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘‘ π‘¦π‘œπ‘’ π‘€π‘–π‘‘β„Ž π‘Ž 𝑛𝑒𝑀 β„Žπ‘’π‘™π‘™π‘œ.” – π‘ƒπ‘Žπ‘’π‘™π‘œ πΆπ‘œπ‘’π‘™β„Žπ‘œ

I saw pictures of you together. I saw pictures of us together in my head. 
It could have been us, perfect together intertwined with God's blessings because we were legal.

A little emotion caused my heart to feel sad. 
The words "moving on" felt like a rock smashing me to pieces again,
How hard can finality feel when being faced with reality. 

I didn't know how many times I have to "move on" 
As new waves of new understanding and awareness come over me every time
This time, goodbye isn't temporary anymore.

As this "finality" becomes too real now
I guess I'm not afraid no more when the bough breaks,
The Lord has spared me, and He never fails.

New hope, new dreams to look forward to. 
Tomorrow, I'll see the sun again. 
I'll be wearing the same bright smile I wore before I met you.

Wednesday, February 17, 2021

Amber's 29th Birthday


π„π©π‘πžπ¬π’πšπ§π¬ πŸ‘:πŸπŸ— (𝐄𝐑𝐕)

"πΆβ„Žπ‘Ÿπ‘–π‘ π‘‘’𝑠 π‘™π‘œπ‘£π‘’ 𝑖𝑠 π‘”π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘Žπ‘‘π‘’π‘Ÿ π‘‘β„Žπ‘Žπ‘› π‘Žπ‘›π‘¦π‘œπ‘›π‘’ π‘π‘Žπ‘› π‘’π‘£π‘’π‘Ÿ π‘˜π‘›π‘œπ‘€, 𝑏𝑒𝑑 𝐼 π‘π‘Ÿπ‘Žπ‘¦ π‘‘β„Žπ‘Žπ‘‘ π‘¦π‘œπ‘’ 𝑀𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑏𝑒 π‘Žπ‘π‘™π‘’ π‘‘π‘œ π‘˜π‘›π‘œπ‘€ π‘‘β„Žπ‘Žπ‘‘ π‘™π‘œπ‘£π‘’. π‘‡β„Žπ‘’π‘› π‘¦π‘œπ‘’ π‘π‘Žπ‘› 𝑏𝑒 𝑓𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑑 π‘€π‘–π‘‘β„Ž π‘’π‘£π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘¦π‘‘β„Žπ‘–π‘›π‘” πΊπ‘œπ‘‘ β„Žπ‘Žπ‘  π‘“π‘œπ‘Ÿ π‘¦π‘œπ‘’." 

Unfortunately, wala akoa phone so I don't have any recent photos of us, but it will not stop me from posting a message on your birthday. 

I never say it enough (especially to both of you ni Thea and you know why I don't want to over-expose na but since it is your special day hehee), but I am thankful to have you by my side in my darkest days where I struggled with my mental and emotional health. Those were crucial times that no one would want to be bothered with, and as my world crumbled, you were there to sit with me. No promises made, no glorious words, nothing fancy like that. Just being there was the heaviest weight you have put on what friendship was all about. 

I hope and pray for better health for you, a better future, a beautiful & flourishing career, and that you will lead a happy & abundant life forever. There might be some rough patches as you go along life, but know that the Lord is all for a wonderful future for you. You are loved. 

πŸ…·πŸ…°️πŸ…Ώ️πŸ…Ώ️πŸ†ˆ πŸ…±️πŸ…ΈπŸ†πŸ†ƒπŸ…·πŸ…³πŸ…°️πŸ†ˆ, πŸ…°️πŸ…ΌπŸ…±️πŸ…΄πŸ†!

Saturday, June 9, 2018

FAMILY: Means More Than Just A Word



FAMILY. I used to have an expectation on what a family should be, perfect, rich, and always happy. There were painful memories, hurtful arguments, happy times; these family went through it all. When I started to meet other people and their families (after being sheltered since I was a child), I realized everyone has their own dysfunctions within their families. Family isn't perfect. Just like marriage, it takes work, lots of understanding and forgiveness, a little helping hand here and there. There's give and take, and working out each other's differences. 

I wanted it to be different for my family this year. In my heart, I've always asked God for wisdom on how to best handle my family as we have been separated for a long time and I've decided (inspired and hopeful because of my Lord Jesus Christ) that this time around, the enemy will not win. The devil won't chain us again in his clutches. He has taken my family captive for a long time through generational curses. 

I remember after my God Encounter Retreat, I asked the Lord, "How do I win my family for you, Lord?" And the Lord answered me simply, "LOVE." 
I didn't know how, but I knew that I'm doing it for the Lord. 

Yesterday was the last day of my sister, Auggie, here in Davao because she's going back to Dubai again. She works there, and goes home every 2 years. We ate at Tien Ma's at SM Lanang. It totally didn't go as planned. We had the cake for my other sister, June Reo, because it was also her birthday yesterday. The birthday girl was late, and she wasn't really able to blow her birthday candle. When she entered the restaurant, we sang just one line of the Happy Birthday song, Hahahaha!

After eating, we took pictures outside of the restaurant and it was total havoc! The kids were running around, and parents have to go after them just so we can take our family pictures. There were lots of struggle with the kids because Julia didn't want to participate, Jasper wanted to be carried by his mom, and Zach was out of sight so my cousin, Paolo, has to go after him. Only baby Zia was behaved heheehe.. 

From the pictures below, it might look like we all got it together, but not quite. πŸ˜€πŸ˜

The birthday girl, June Reo

Well, we tried the group picture thingy while eating.. Nope, not working.


 And so here we are...




Of course, me and my daughter were somehow twinning on this particular day πŸ˜πŸ˜ƒ



With my Mama and sisters sans Julee, my actual twin, who's in Dubai. 



Last not but not the least, as I will be more forgiving and loving in my journey with Christ, I am welcoming a new bundle of joy. I am praying from the Lord for a smooth ride as I embark on a new journey. I know the Lord has prepared everything for me. I will be writing about the experience when everything has been ironed out.

For now, I would like to be happy for both of them and for our family. 😊

For baby Ean Pantaleon



As I expand my heart, my life, my views, these are verses we can learn so much from. In order for God's love to transcend, we have to be more open to this love that He has given us and move beyond us so that many would believe that He is our God who loves and forgives and accepts.

 “Your approval means nothing to me, because I know you don’t have God’s love within you." John 5:41-42 (NLT)

"Many more believed because of his message, and they told the woman, “We believe now, not because of what you said, but because we ourselves have heard him, and we know that he really is the Savior of the world.” John 4:41-42 (GNT)