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| This was an FB post about my boyfriend of 8 or 9 years after my husband and I were separated. |
I actually felt a little foolish when I saw this post of mine. Being in a wrong relationship at the time that you thought it was just right, you'll have to expect that it would be a disastrous one. I remember how we used to fight, make up thinking it would be okay again, & then we fight for the same reasons. But being married, separated, and then walked in to another relationship, I thought it was okay. But if it's outside God's will, expect that you will just be living off a dream that everything is okay. That one day, I will just move on with this great man, forget about my previous bad marriage. But we can never run from reality forever. At the early years of our relationship, we were both happy & looking forward to a great future. But reality would hit me big time. Within those years that we were together, questions kept creeping into my mind. How we will get married? How much for an annulment, so I can remarry? How would my daughter feel about it? What about our future kids? Would they be okay with the setup? How would this guy be towards my daughter once we have our own kids? Would it leave out my daughter once she has new siblings to another father? These are just a few questions that left me confused, and indecisive. Our beautiful & happy relationship soon became a burden to me, and it soon made him unhappy. I couldn't for the life of me give him a child, for this would go against my legal marriage.
I knew I was being selfish, and both of us couldn't move on to a good future with this issue. And I soon came face to face with the question, "Is this what God really wanted? For me? For him? And for my daughter?" If it was, it would have been easy. But it wasn't. In my heart, I knew that our relationship was not of God's no matter how beautiful, and fun, and happy it was. No matter how hard I tried to make it work, it is outside of God's plan for me and for all those involved in it. So after 9 years of being together, I had to let it all go. It took me 2 or 3 long years to decide if I should let him go.
Today, I am still separated with my husband. But I can say that I am now in a happier, and more peaceful place. Right now, I am letting God do all His work on me, and in my life. I'd be a hypocrite if I say I don't get lonely. Yes, I do. And in all honesty, I have no desire in my heart to get back with my husband anymore. He has moved on, and I have healed. We both deserve a happier, & better partners for life. I am still for whatever God's desire and will in my life. Whatever He will ask me to do, I will follow. One of the things I will follow is to not sin against our marriage. If we are to annul, and if it is God wanted, it will happen. But this time, it will be a peaceful one. NO heartaches, no hurtful words, or actions. It will just be according to God's plan.
I am following this command Luke 16:18 "Everyone who divorces his wife and marries another commits adultery, and he who marries a woman divorced from her husband commits adultery."
But I did receive a promise from God (3 times already), in 1 Corinthians 7:15 "But if the husband or wife who isn’t a believer insists on leaving, let them go. In such cases the believing husband or wife[a] is no longer bound to the other, for God has called you[b] to live in peace."
I knew I was being selfish, and both of us couldn't move on to a good future with this issue. And I soon came face to face with the question, "Is this what God really wanted? For me? For him? And for my daughter?" If it was, it would have been easy. But it wasn't. In my heart, I knew that our relationship was not of God's no matter how beautiful, and fun, and happy it was. No matter how hard I tried to make it work, it is outside of God's plan for me and for all those involved in it. So after 9 years of being together, I had to let it all go. It took me 2 or 3 long years to decide if I should let him go.
Today, I am still separated with my husband. But I can say that I am now in a happier, and more peaceful place. Right now, I am letting God do all His work on me, and in my life. I'd be a hypocrite if I say I don't get lonely. Yes, I do. And in all honesty, I have no desire in my heart to get back with my husband anymore. He has moved on, and I have healed. We both deserve a happier, & better partners for life. I am still for whatever God's desire and will in my life. Whatever He will ask me to do, I will follow. One of the things I will follow is to not sin against our marriage. If we are to annul, and if it is God wanted, it will happen. But this time, it will be a peaceful one. NO heartaches, no hurtful words, or actions. It will just be according to God's plan.
I am following this command Luke 16:18 "Everyone who divorces his wife and marries another commits adultery, and he who marries a woman divorced from her husband commits adultery."
But I did receive a promise from God (3 times already), in 1 Corinthians 7:15 "But if the husband or wife who isn’t a believer insists on leaving, let them go. In such cases the believing husband or wife[a] is no longer bound to the other, for God has called you[b] to live in peace."
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