Thursday, January 26, 2017


Isaiah 55:4-5 Ang tubag ni Lord sa akoa, after praying for the last 2 weeks.. This was my devo yesterday, and up until now, His message is the same for me. I wanted to quit in the leadership, and just live life on my own. I was also asking God if ang promise nya and His declaration na mag multiply ko when mahitabo. But yesterday, He gave me another command and promise which I will hold on to. I need to wait a little more. God is still pruning things in my life, still molding me, and I need to continue doing what I was assigned to do.

So many disappointments along the way as I have lost a lot of people I wanted to stay in my lifegroup, but God has taught me patience, and assuring me that it is part of the process. He has shown another side of me, both the negatives and positives. Still, I end up being with God. Lahi ra jud if you have experienced God already in your life. Lord, thank you.

Thursday, January 19, 2017

Pangarap Lang

Pangarap lang ni sa una.. Trying out, testing the waters, nagbabasakali, unsure pa. This was year 2012, & I was in Cebu pa. Walay plano mag uli og mo settle sa Davao. Wala pa nako ni seryosoha because it was a long shot. But this is one proof na pag mag declare ka, & it comes from the heart, maskin testing2 lang, pwede mahitabo.

I even messaged this girl, who later on became one my best friends in church now. My aunt wanted me to message her so I could go back home, and not work in another city anymore.

Fast forward 2017, 3 years na diay ko online worker. I will continue to pray and declare for the things I desire to happen in my life.

Thank you Lord for the creation of FB Memories, it gave me something to reflect on today.

#AllisGood #AllIsWell #GodIsGood

Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Lord, Help Me Let Go...


Today,  I asked the Lord to help me let go. 

And piece my heart back to make it brand new. 
Because of my first marriage, my first love, everything in my life just fell into pieces.

After that, my heart has never been the same. 
My life never really became better. 
I carry the sadness and the regrets that has shaped my present life. 

I never really moved on. 
I firmly believe that we are more than our mistakes. 
But I still have a lot of wounds to heal.

Every day, even though I try to forget it or deny it, 
The past still catches up on me.
And I feel the pain again and again.

I find it hard to renew my life, 
To restore how I was before,
Or even make a brand new me.

Lord, today I ask for a brand new future,
New hopes and new dreams.
Please, help me let go,
So I can move on and start anew. 

Saturday, January 14, 2017

Not Forgotten

From the 3 chapters of my devotional, the Lord all throughout assured me that He has not forgotten me, and everything will be restored. He will show that He is the Lord in my life (an answer He gave me from what I have prayed yesterday in the afternoon). But this verse though struck me because he is assuring me that my hard work will be rewarded, and I just need to be persistent (again another reply I was pondering through the week if I always need to work this hard to earn).

He gave me a warning in Isaiah 49:14-15 that in moments of darkness, confusion, helplessness, I might wonder where He is and if He has forgotten me. God reassured me that I am not forgotten.

Thank you, Lord! Pictured below is the verse from Isaiah 49:4-6 (Promise)
Application? Work hard, wait, and continue to pray for my family.

Saturday, January 7, 2017

Good Morning!

Photo Not Mine. ctto

Good morning! Started my day with prayers and worship, and talking to God. It's nice to be alone.

"Give your burdens to the Lord,
and he will take care of you.
He will not permit the godly to slip and fall." [Psalm 55:22 NLT]

Wednesday, January 4, 2017


Photo not mine. ctto (St. John's UMC)

So many times I want to go back on my promise, and turn my back to God because of so many things/circumstances (money problems, fighting with my sisters, offense, anger, hurt, etc), but I always end up talking and crying to God. 

I realized that God has me better than anyone else. He never disappoints, Men does. And I love Him, so it's better for me to follow His teachings. 

Pride just goes down the drain.

Unbiological Sisters

Thank you for being my unbiological sisters.

"A friend who understands your tears is much more valuable than a lot of friends who only know your smile." 

Sunday, January 1, 2017

NY Eve 2017

I just got home from Cabantian where I celebrated New Year's Eve. It is my younger sister's house where my mom, youngest sister, and pamangkins live. As I have observed them, the Lord revealed to me how my family truly needs JESUS. So when I got home, I prayed over my family, especially in the spiritual aspect. I prayed that they will desire and seek God. I prayed for each of them. I prayed for my daughter. I prayed for the Garcia/Pantaleon/Pilones/Cruz family, for my ministry & my disciples, for the planned upcoming events this year in my life & for the church, for the provision to make all these plans possible, and for my friends.

2016 was the most difficult year for me, and through those difficult times, I have experienced a lot & learned a lot. At first, I couldn't understand why I had to go through it all, but with each step I take, each prayer I sincerely uttered, each thought that comes into mind, God would unfold revelation after revelation making me realize I needed it all. He is preparing me: my mind, and my heart. There are so many to share, but God has taught me to just fully trust Him, to be honest where I lack, to surrender to Him at every start of the battle, to love without choosing who, to forgive again & again, to extend my patience, and to think before speaking. God is truly wonderful!